2020 rocked so many of us.

It revealed what was working.

It revealed what really wasn’t working.

It showed us where we were out of alignment and the cost to that misalignment.

It stripped away all the distractions and left us emotionally naked, raw and vulnerable.

Maybe 2020 was the year you noticed patterns that you had never seen before.

I sure did.

I saw my overfunctioning codependency fire up and take down the vision of love and partnership I hold so dearly.

I noticed just how subtle the pattern of getting hooked by ambivalence really operates in my romantic relationship programming.

I noticed my turn on was being misused to manage the game of chasing what either doesn’t want to be caught or what has already let go of me.

I saw how vulnerable my inner little girl gets when the rug gets pulled from underneath her.

I saw the pattern of filling myself up with anything but the pleasure my cells long for.

2020 was the Illuminator. The bright light poured over all of these areas that for so long were out of my range of vision, or simply weren’t noticeable enough to do anything about.

But being rocked by grief and loss has a way of showing us what IS behind the masks, behind the facades, behind the highlight reel.

In the revelation of these sticky spots, I went back to basics.

I remembered in the depths of my pain, that pleasure was the portal.

Learning through pain and suffering has its place on our paths, but so does learning through joy, ease and pleasure.

Healing and creating with pleasure wasn’t something new. I had begun the decade of 2010 dripping in pleasure, marinating in joy, buzzing in magic and flowing with ease.

Somewhere in my system during the depths of my pain in 2020, this old familiar flicker made itself known.

I knew I had the magic in my cells waiting for my command to activate.

I knew my turn on was the key to unlocking the storehouse of possibilities that are written into my souls code.

I knew pleasure was the portal to clearing, unhooking and opening to the embodiment of a life lived on purpose.

When ambiguity hooks us in any area of life, we’re more prone to settle for mediocrity.

You know, relationships that are just ok but don’t set your heart fully ablaze.

Friendships that drain or squash your vitality instead of building you up and amplifying your brilliance.

Using your body to get through the slog of your day to day but not really feeling the expansive magic of what your body is capable of doing or feeling.

A relationship with money where you’re constantly anxious, not dancing in a romantically luscious love affair with the flow of abundance and wealth you’re worthy of.

A sex life that is lifeless, mechanical or disconnected, not dripping with desire, sacred turn on, emotional intimacy and pleasure.

Or living the same day over and over where you’re often left thinking "is this really all there is?"
Disconnected from your purpose, the expression of your purpose and the fulfilment of knowing every day is a love affair with the divine living through you.

As we anchor into this new decade I am crystal clear, ambiguity and mediocrity have no space to take up residence in my head, my body and my life.

Once I tracked the impact this ambiguity pattern had been making, it was too big of a cost to keep investing into.

So I chose pleasure.

I chose intimate connection.

I chose sacred turn on.

I began making choices daily to serve the expression of my purpose, to nourish the turn on in my cells, to allow the radiance of pleasure to do a deep clearing of all that was no longer serving and let it go with grace.

I let myself be filled with the sacred pulse of the divine.

I let myself move and be moved in ways that nourished me.

I committed with clarity to myself and my inner little human in all the ways partners, friends, parents, couldn’t.

I anchored my vision with devotion.

I played with possibilities.

I radiated with turn on over what IS aligned for me.

By using the four pillars of pleasure, pleasure embodiment and pleasure scripting technologies I came back to myself in a way that allows me to be here now. At peace. In pleasure. In devotion to what is good for me.

An inner space rooted in confidence to lovingly release those who have gone as far as they can go with me.

The safety to release habits that steal my vitality instead of enhance it.

The self worth to release investing in ways that leave me drained and disconnected from purpose.

A gift this liberating I can’t just keep to myself. As pleasure does, it spoke loud and clear to share this process with as many people as possible.

I’m so excited to invite you on this journey if you’re feeling the ache for more purpose, the desire for deeper fulfilment, the longing for rooted love and hot radiant sex, the desire for wildly abundant wealth, and most of all the desire to feel at home in your body, anchored in your cells and safe to become more of who you’ve always been.


Your Turned on Life Is Calling, Ready to Say YES to your pleasure filled life?